Yesterday I had the kind of day that leaves marks on your soul. Unfortunately for me, these marks come on top of old scars. I've told those stories here before, and I'm not in the head space where I can tell this one yet. I'm not as emotionally overwrought as I was in the past, I had some warning of where things were going and had a chance to prepare myself mentally for what was coming. But I've spent the day with a deep sense of melancholy, and a deep appreciation for my baby girl.
I spent most of the day in a very contemplative way... and EZ's "Knit on..." quote passed through my head more than once. I worked a few more rows on the Dragon shawl (I am only 4 rows away from starting on bits of the dragon and I am getting more comfortable with that birds eye lace). I started a new project for myself, Ysolde's Damson shawl with some of the beautiful rich magenta/purple yarn I got when I traveled to Philadelphia earlier in May this year. It is a simple little shawl/scarf with some nice details and I know the color will be lovely against my skin. A little treat for the fall, which seems to be here already with Chicago's current cold, rainy grey weather.
And I went to class and worked on my current weaving project. I finally have my loom warped, my header woven and I hope in my next class I'll be moving on to weaving the actual project. I will say one thing for weaving: when you're getting your loom warped, it's really hard to think about anything else. I earned a number of weaving merit badges tonight as I worked my way through all the issues that come up with a warp sett at 56 epi for double weave (28 epi for each cloth) and wrangling 840 warp ends and 8 shafts. By the time I'm done with this project, I'm really going to feel like I've accomplished something.
Today I will deal with the wrap up and closure of yesterday and hopefully will end the day with my family at our favorite brew pub enjoying Z's favorite french fries and a beer. And the scars will heal just a little. And I'll start to move on.
Peace and a happy weekend to you all.
I'm sorry you have to go through this difficult time. I hope your weekend is peaceful and restorative.
I'm so sorry for you. I hope you will recover soon, and that things will work out in the end. Take care!
Dear Theresa,
So sorry that you are having to face such sadness again.
Knit on, dear friend. Knit on.
I am so sorry. Positive and healing thoughts to you.
I am sorry.
Prayers of healing and peace are heading your way. I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry. Please take comfort in love and presence of your family.
Hugs sent your way. I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry for you. I hope that you find comfort and healing with your family.
So sorry to hear that your family is in a time of sadness; prayers go to you.
Sending healing and calming thoughts your way. I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss and sending healing vibes your way
Oh dear! I hope things are a little better today. I too am sending positive thoughts your way.
Hoping time and family provide some balm and comfort for your hurt. Sending virtual hugs.
Sorry to hear you're having a bad time. Please take care.
I am sorry that life is not well. I will be thinking good thoughts for you.
Sending you and your family very big hugs and hope that the weekend will help restore you just a little bit.
I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and sending good wishes!
::hugs::
Take care of yourself -- I hope the melancholy passes quickly.
Wishing peace and joy for you soon.
Sad to hear that you're going through a difficult time, but glad to see that you're focusing on the good things in life, it's encouraging to see. Hope that you feel better more each day.
I'm sad to hear that you are dealing with more sadness, but heartened to hear that knitting, weaving, beer and Z are being employed in the healing process :) I know you'll heal a bit each day and keep moving. Take care.
I'm sorry, and really wish it were different.
I'm so sorry. I have a close friend in a similar situation, and I know how difficult it can be. Sending positive energy and healing thoughts your way...
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I'm sorry. Having been there before probably doesn't do much to help you cope the second time around.
I am very sorry. Wishing you well.
Blessings to you. May you find the strength to stand up to this.
Big hug to you.
I am so sorry you are going through this. Big hugs to you, John and Z. All I can say is love and appreciate what you do have. It is a big comfort, but I know that you are still hurting and grieving.
I'm so sorry too, and sending healing thoughts. What you do have is wonderful...
We out here in cyberspace are thinking of you, wishing you healing and peace.
Hugs. I am so sorry. Positive and healing thoughts to you.
I am so terribly sorry.